.inside my head.

not been on here in a long while!

The Broken clock is a comfort
It helps me sleep tonight
Maybe it can stop tomorrow
From stealing all my time
And I am here still waiting
Though I still have my doubts
I am damaged at best
Like you’ve already figured out

I’m falling apart
I’m barely breathing
With a broken heart
That’s still beating
In the pain
There is healing
In your name
I find meaning
So I’m holding on (I’m holdin on)(I’m holdin on)
I’m barely holding on to you

The broken locks were a warning
You got inside my head
I tried my best to be guarded
I’m an open book instead
And I still see your reflection
Inside of my eyes
That are looking for purpose
They’re still looking for life

I’m falling apart
I’m barely breathing
With a broken heart
That’s still beating
In the pain (In the pain)
Is there healing
In your name
I find meaning
So I’m holding on (I’m still holdin on)(I’m holdin on)
(I’m still holdin on) (I’m holdin on)
I’m barely holding on to you

I’m hanging on another day
Just to see what, you will throw my way
And I’m hanging on, to the words you say
You said that I will, will be okay
The broken light on the freeway
Left me here alone
I may have lost my way now
But I haven’t forgotten my way home

I’m falling apart
I’m barely breathing
With a broken heart
That’s still beating
In the pain (In the pain)
There is healing
In your name (In your name)
I find meaning
So I’m holding on 

Barely holding on to you
Barely holdin on to you

don’t let your heart get the best of you. don’t go in head over feet. keep yourself grounded.

and the fire’s burning bright.

the stars are lighting the way

so come with me tonight.

we’ll make it through the day.

i’ll take you away to a far away place

i’ll hold your hand and keep you safe

i’ll wipe the tears from your beautiful face

and get lost in the warmth of your embrace

we can kiss this town goodbye for the last time

forget the past and forget the mistakes

and stop telling ourselves we’re just fine

we’ll believe it for once, no more aches

we can change this world for the best

live for the moments that take our breath away

and throw out all the rest

keep the memories and live day by day

with you by my side, i can do it all

there’s nothing holding me back now

and i promise beh, i’ll never let you fall

i’ll make you believe it, somehow.

it’s one of the hardest thing you’ll ever have to do. to let the one person go that you gave your heart to. the one you care about more than anyone. the one you think about non stop. the one who makes you smile when no one else can. it’s the worst feeling you’ll ever feel. to turn around, walk away, and pretend you don’t care.

but know.

i’ll always be here to beat his sorry ass

life’s all about taking chances.

falling in love

having your heart broken

feeling pure bliss

and then pure torture

eventually everyone goes through it

it’s how you pick yourself up in the end

that actually makes a difference

what am i doing? i’ve let myself get tangled up in this again.  i did what i told myself i wouldn’t do.  now it’s back to the same old shit and i’m fucked up again.  not literally fucked up, just somewhat confused.  i’m tired of freaking and all that shit.  it’s not my place.  i’ve forgotten what it’s like to be whatever about things once again.  i hate this feeling of insecurity.  it’s a terrible thing to feel and overcome.  i just wish i could sleep this all away.